The Present & Future Hold Many New Things

Next Sunday, April 13, I think, is my one month anniversary of being drug free. I will admit, I have drank twice since I decided to quit drugs. St. Patty's day, had to drink. :] Lol. Soooo much has happened recently. I quit school to do internet school which has helped a tremendous amount. My grades at Westmoore weren't so great because I ditched my classes most of the time. But in internet school, I have completed four classes in 6 days. I have 2 classes left which I hope to finish by next week. I have put in applications all over town to get a job. I get my license in July, hopefully I'll have enough money to buy a car by then. Next year I will do internet school also, & continue working full time throughout the year. I intend to move out around June or July of next year. I'll be 17, but my parents have agreed to emancipate me, or something to that effect as long as I have a good steady job. So many things are happening within the next year that give me all these mixed emotions. I'm super excited, but scared at the same time. It's going to be a whole new world living and working on my own. I am up for the challenges to come. :]
Now let's speak of last Saturday night, the night I got arrested. LOL. I'm sure you're thinking oh great she was on drugs or it had something to do with drugs. WRONG! I've proved you all wrong by staying off drugs, & I'm proud of that. Mallory, Rihana, Jessica, Barrett, and I were wanting to hang out that night and didn't really have anywhere to go. So we all decided to go ghost hunting since it's finally warm enough to start going again. Mally, Rihana, and I found a pretty neato cemetery a few weeks ago and decided it could very well be haunted. So we make our way out there. It's the perfect night, so we think. Misty, foggy, pitch black and eerie overall. We are about to get of the car when a light beside us comes on and we realize someone had followed us out there. We leave and decide we'll just go chill at a park back in the city. By now it's about 3 in the morning. We're all just chillin' and having a great time at the park when a cop pulls up. All of us being completely sober and everything we're like oh well we can't get in trouble when the cop tells us parks close at midnight! & since Mally and I are underage we got arrested for breaking curfew. I honestly didn't think we could get in trouble since we were with people over 18, I thought wrong. We were arrested and everyone else was sent home. Our parents had to come pick us up and sign papers and things like that. Now I have to go to court within the next 30 days. Oh fun. But when I think about it I had been praying all night that nothing would go wrong because I had one of those feelings. I look back and think about all the times I have done ecstasy at that park and thanks God I don't have to worry about that anymore.
Everyone in my family has noticed changes about me since I got off drugs. I look healthier and I have more energy. I don't feel dead anymore, and it's a wonderful feeling. I don't have to worry about what I'm going to do about getting money for my drugs anymore. I have very small worries now, and I'm enjoying the hell out of it.
Now, I notcied one of my ribs were bigger than the other side. It kept getting larger over the course of a month, so I showed my mom and she said it's more than likely a lipoma, a very slow growing tumor that may or may not be cancerous. She and my grandfather had one, so if it's passed on thru genetics, that's more than likely what it is. It is somewhat painful, but I'll live. I go to the doctor for it next week and find out for sure what it is. I pray every night that it's nothing serious. Keep me in your prayers guys!
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Life is finally good.

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