Time

Time has passed and the holidays have come and gone just like that. I made good times through the bad, and had my days where nothing went right. We will start with Christmas. I know everybody had different religions or some may not have a religion, but most people celebrate the holidays one way or another. My family celebrates Christmas. Which we will talk about later on. My biological father, had his Christmas the Friday before Christmas day, and I wasn't able to go. Me and my Mom and Step-dad and best friend for life Janel, were on vacation in Branson MO. We had the time of our lives. No worries, no problems to think about. We had a nice hotel room, and the pool and spa was just two doors down. So of course we spent our nights drinking coffee, Janel prefers hot chocolate, sitting in the spa discussing our days. It wasn't a long trip at all, but it was a break from a few things. It was away from home, which was exactly what we needed. We went to one of Branson's famous shows at the White House Theatre, which my step-father and I claimed to be ours since his last name is White. We saw the Fantastic Seven Themes show. When we arrived at the White House Theatre, we stood in a line and waited to be seated for our dinner. It was one of those really fancy places where you don't know which spoon and fork to use for which foods. And only tea and water to drink, from whine glasses. Luckily for me, I had just completed a Basic Life Skills class in school, so I was one of the few who know what silver ware to use for what. Thanks Mrs. Halcolmb. Lol. After we ate our fancy dinner, we walked around the Theatre and looked at the gift shop and some of the amazing clocks they had everywhere. They had a beautiful original Grandfather clock that was prices at abour $6,000,000. All the while, me walking around recording everything with my DVD cam-corder that I got for Christmas. Then, it was time to go watch the play. They call it a play, but I concider it more of an act. The talent that was shown that night was terrific! They had amazing people. Then when we got home at around 11pm that night, Janel and I sat in our hotel room and watched some TV, there wasn't much on so we watched some cartoon. And at 11:30 my parents came in our room and gave us the bottle of champaigne that they had gotten earlier that day for buying a condo. Then we finished the bottle off at around midnight, and decided to go for a swim. The next morning we did a few things then climbed in the car for the endless ride home. All the while I slept on the floor of the car. When we got home, my sister came over and decided to take me home with her. And a couple of days later, I decided to have my boyfriend over there. Well, here's where it got stupid on my part. I had been cheating on him. His name is Micheal, and the only reason I was is because I had heard from his cousin Levi that he had been cheating on me. Micheal, Sam and I were sitting at my sisters house watching a movie, My Cousin Vinny, if i'm not mistaken. And I was texting Sam, who was sitting right beside me, because I didn't want Micheal to hear. I asked her if I should break up with the other guy, Matt, now. And I thought I deleted the text, and Micheal asked to look at my phone, me being the little smart-ass that I am said yeah sure here you go and handed him the phone, thinking the text was deleted. He saw the text, threw the phone back at me and turned his iPod on full blast so he couldn't hear me explain myself, which i'm sure came out as a bunch of words jumbled together, because I was so scared I was going to lose him. So I walked out on the back porch sat down and started crying, thinking he would forgive me and we could work it out, well that didn't work, he walked past me to his car like I wasn't even there. Then I decided to call the other guy and break up with him. So somehow a few days later the other guy, Matt, and I ended up together again. And my sister was already in town picking up our friend Chicken Shit so she picked up Matt too. The first night Matt was there it was kind of akward. But... The second night, we got a little too friendly. And I screwed him, yeah not the smartest thing in the world, I know. And somehow Micheal found out about it, except he just thought that I gave him a hand job and he fingered me... Which is better than him knowing the rest of it. So at school yesterday somehow people found out about me and Matt, and everybody thinks that I just did it to get back at his ex that I don't like. Well I know that's not true and Matt knows that's not true, that should be all that matters right? No, everybody at my school is threatening to kill me and beat the shit ou of me for it. So I tried to OD last night, but obviously I didn't take enough pills, and it just made me completely sick today. Now, I was texting Micheal earlier, and I found out that he might have cancer. So on top of me being sick, my Micheal might have cancer, and my mom is sick and I have to take care of her too. And normally I talk to Jason, but I lost his cell number and my step-brother is being an ass and won't give it to me. So I'm just lost. And another thing I found out last night is that Micheal is being sent to Iraq in September... And that's my Christmas story. Oh yeah... I got a new cell Sunday night, still the same number. Fire Red RZR. So yeah... Email me @ starless_n_cold@hotmail.com


Love
~Sarah