No Regrets
Life..Wow. I'm not sure if it's going up or down, forward or back. I'm typically an organized person. For the last two months I've had no time to be organized, and I was loving it. I was finally living the typical teenage life I'd always dreamed of. The party scene with drugs, many firsts of everythings. It was great the lying, sneaking out, and suspence of what was going to happen next. I had money, the perfect boyfriend, and amazing friends. What I didn't know was that life was about to spin out of control. I got my hands on a drug I'd never tried..Ecstasy. I did my reading and researching on it, as with anything I do or try. I figured it'd be safe. Though it's not something I suggest for those who aren't ready to take a risk. You never know what's in X. I was the first in my group to try this kind. Later I found out it was heroine based. It was THE BEST experience of my life. I'll tell you how the trip went.
At about 1:35AM Saturday night, sitting in my cousins living room with Derick, my cousins boyfriend, and Chad, my boyfriend I decided to take the X alone since I couldn't convince my boyfriend to. I kept looking at the time wondering "is it ever going to hit me?" and "maybe it's some bull shit and it's not gonna hit me." After about thirty minutes of me repeatedly asking Chad to just take it he finally answered me with "I did baby." But he had just taken it when it started to hit me. Derick was talking when it hit me, honestly I have no idea what he was talking about. All I remember is watching his mouth trying to understand what he was saying. I could understand him and hear him, I just couldn't comprehend what he was saying. I felt dizzy, extremely tired, and light-headed. Then all the sudden Chad asked me what I was doing. I replied with "Nothing! What're you talking about?!" He then glanced at my hands saying "Baby? ..Baby?..Are you ok?" I then looked at my hands and realized I was rubbing them together then rubbing the couch then rubbing them together again. I answered him with a grin and a simple "Yeah, hun, I'm fine." I had the sudden urge to touch him..Not even in a sexual way really, but a sensual way. But it hadn't hit him yet, so I held myself back so he didn't think he was weird. Instead I got up and started walking around, drinking a ton of water. My cousin then started griping at ne not to drink too much water so I didn't get water on the brain, I tried to give her a hug even though she was yelling at me. I remember almost crying because multiple timesshe turned down my hugs. But I was just so happy. Next thing I knew Chad was standing behing me grabbing my waist. I knew it hit him. I was so dizzy and just wanted to dance, so I danced..to the music we didn't have. Chad was still at that stage where you just want to touch everything. I was past that and I couldn't be still. I just wanted to hug and dance. Chad and I walked outside then back in then back out then back in, I don't even know how many times. I was just so happy. We were getting crazy looks, and I was loving every second of it. I couldn't stop smiling. We sat down on the couch trying to listen to Derick. Every fewminutes I'd ask Chad if he was ok and he'd do the same. The answer every time from both of us was "Of course baby, I'm great. Yeah it's good. Wanna hug?" Then Derick stood up said something then threw some blankets and pillows in the bedroom saying there's a matress in there have fun. We just laughed at him like haha yeah right we don't wanna touch each other that bad..Pfft we ended up in the bedroom just laying there half-way naked talking. Rubbing eachothers backs and tummies. Again, not sexually, but sensually. Then we decided we were hot and wanted to do outside, where we ended up dancing and talking for an hour or two. Then back inside to the couch, then to the bedroom where we were back and forth from the bed to the couch in the livingroom until 6PM Sunday evening. Yes, we did have sex, but that wasn't the best part of it all. The best part was just being close, talking, and dancing. Not caring what everyone else thought. May I remind you, we were at apartments, so there were people watching us everytime we went outside. Let me tell you, besides getting saves, this was the best night I think I've ever had.
If you're thinking about doing it go ahead! But first take some precautions!
1. The main reason people die from ecstasy is cause by drinking too much water, which causes water on the brain. All you want to do is drink water. Don't!!! Have someone there who isn't taking it to watch how much water you drink. If no one is there to do that WRITE IT DOWN!
2. Read point number one again, it's really important.
3. Watch out for teeth grinding! It can cause some serious teeth damage, and a seriously sore jaw the next day.
4. Have fun and don't think sad thoughts or you'll have a bad trip, no fun!
5. Drink orange juice.
6. Techno or trance music is good.
7. Strobe lights are amazing.
In NO WAY am I telling you this drug is okay, nor am I encouraging you to use this drug.
But if you've made up your mind to do it, BE CAREFUL!
I love you kidds, please be careful in all you do.
God Bless!
-Sarah
At about 1:35AM Saturday night, sitting in my cousins living room with Derick, my cousins boyfriend, and Chad, my boyfriend I decided to take the X alone since I couldn't convince my boyfriend to. I kept looking at the time wondering "is it ever going to hit me?" and "maybe it's some bull shit and it's not gonna hit me." After about thirty minutes of me repeatedly asking Chad to just take it he finally answered me with "I did baby." But he had just taken it when it started to hit me. Derick was talking when it hit me, honestly I have no idea what he was talking about. All I remember is watching his mouth trying to understand what he was saying. I could understand him and hear him, I just couldn't comprehend what he was saying. I felt dizzy, extremely tired, and light-headed. Then all the sudden Chad asked me what I was doing. I replied with "Nothing! What're you talking about?!" He then glanced at my hands saying "Baby? ..Baby?..Are you ok?" I then looked at my hands and realized I was rubbing them together then rubbing the couch then rubbing them together again. I answered him with a grin and a simple "Yeah, hun, I'm fine." I had the sudden urge to touch him..Not even in a sexual way really, but a sensual way. But it hadn't hit him yet, so I held myself back so he didn't think he was weird. Instead I got up and started walking around, drinking a ton of water. My cousin then started griping at ne not to drink too much water so I didn't get water on the brain, I tried to give her a hug even though she was yelling at me. I remember almost crying because multiple timesshe turned down my hugs. But I was just so happy. Next thing I knew Chad was standing behing me grabbing my waist. I knew it hit him. I was so dizzy and just wanted to dance, so I danced..to the music we didn't have. Chad was still at that stage where you just want to touch everything. I was past that and I couldn't be still. I just wanted to hug and dance. Chad and I walked outside then back in then back out then back in, I don't even know how many times. I was just so happy. We were getting crazy looks, and I was loving every second of it. I couldn't stop smiling. We sat down on the couch trying to listen to Derick. Every fewminutes I'd ask Chad if he was ok and he'd do the same. The answer every time from both of us was "Of course baby, I'm great. Yeah it's good. Wanna hug?" Then Derick stood up said something then threw some blankets and pillows in the bedroom saying there's a matress in there have fun. We just laughed at him like haha yeah right we don't wanna touch each other that bad..Pfft we ended up in the bedroom just laying there half-way naked talking. Rubbing eachothers backs and tummies. Again, not sexually, but sensually. Then we decided we were hot and wanted to do outside, where we ended up dancing and talking for an hour or two. Then back inside to the couch, then to the bedroom where we were back and forth from the bed to the couch in the livingroom until 6PM Sunday evening. Yes, we did have sex, but that wasn't the best part of it all. The best part was just being close, talking, and dancing. Not caring what everyone else thought. May I remind you, we were at apartments, so there were people watching us everytime we went outside. Let me tell you, besides getting saves, this was the best night I think I've ever had.
If you're thinking about doing it go ahead! But first take some precautions!
1. The main reason people die from ecstasy is cause by drinking too much water, which causes water on the brain. All you want to do is drink water. Don't!!! Have someone there who isn't taking it to watch how much water you drink. If no one is there to do that WRITE IT DOWN!
2. Read point number one again, it's really important.
3. Watch out for teeth grinding! It can cause some serious teeth damage, and a seriously sore jaw the next day.
4. Have fun and don't think sad thoughts or you'll have a bad trip, no fun!
5. Drink orange juice.
6. Techno or trance music is good.
7. Strobe lights are amazing.
In NO WAY am I telling you this drug is okay, nor am I encouraging you to use this drug.
But if you've made up your mind to do it, BE CAREFUL!
I love you kidds, please be careful in all you do.
God Bless!
-Sarah
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